Reflections of a Wandering Mind

But we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. ~Romans 5:3-4 I'm feeling a little persecuted lately. Nothing I do seems good enough, no matter how hard I work. My motives are questioned; someone in authority over me assumes the worst. Forming opinions without considering all the circumstances and using only the one-sided, limited knowledge they have. I'm fighting a losing battle against a closed mind, and it presses down on me like a ton of rock. Why do we give such unworthy people that kind power over us? Why do we allow them to destroy our peace of mind, our happiness? The answer is clear...we lack the strength and comfort we need, the things that God offers freely to us. Caught up in our daily lives, we fail to partake of the gifts ever at our disposal. The power in Christ to be content with the knowledge that we know the truth of our worth and motivations and not to be bothered with th...

I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing. ~Agatha Christie Tears, on the brink of tears I have been for almost two weeks. Profoundly sad, alternately filled with rage. I will never be the same. I am praying for this resentment and sadness to leave me, but even if it does; I have been changed. Even though I am not important enough in anyone's life for them to take an interest in my thoughts as I express them here, I just cannot take the risk spilling my secrets for they are not mine alone. I carry a heavy burden, but I do know that life is good and will get better once again for me. I know it, but right now I just don't feel it. I have never felt such despair in my life. Sad, helpless, alone - but I am alive and there is hope.