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Acutely Miserable...

I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing. ~Agatha Christie
Tears, on the brink of tears I have been for almost two weeks. Profoundly sad, alternately filled with rage. I will never be the same. I am praying for this resentment and sadness to leave me, but even if it does; I have been changed.

Even though I am not important enough in anyone's life for them to take an interest in my thoughts as I express them here, I just cannot take the risk spilling my secrets for they are not mine alone.

I carry a heavy burden, but I do know that life is good and will get better once again for me. I know it, but right now I just don't feel it. I have never felt such despair in my life. Sad, helpless, alone - but I am alive and there is hope.
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