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One Corner of the Universe

There's only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self. ~Aldous Huxley

It's so easy to see the negative in others, and I'm no exception to this rule. The last few entries deal with my view of what's wrong with the world while it would probably be more worthwhile to turn that reflection inward...

Yes, I think so. I'm so wanting to control my world around me when, in fact, I'll only end up frustrated because we really only have control over one thing: our reactions/interaction to the world and people around us. A quick temper is one of my greatest flaws and the one I will address tonight.

While I may be justified in feeling offended, there is no defense for the level in which I respond when angered. Sometimes my anger has been unjustified just because I have misunderstood the situation, and given my quickness to judge, I have placed myself into sticky situations in which I just look foolish.

Other times my projected anger is warranted, but not my place to express. It's so hard to see a loved one treated disrespectfully, especially one's own child. A parent just wants to strike out and defend, but, as an adult, my daughter resents my intrusion. Unless there is real physical danger, I have to resist the snide, hurtful, insulting remarks to her partner no matter how much I feel justified in making them. The path my daughter needs to take is clear, but until she makes the decision to tread there, I need to butt out unless invited to share the burden.

There is also a need for me to "not sweat the small stuff." So often I work myself up over the smallest infraction. Why make a mountain out of a molehill? Why allow someone to manipulate me so easily? And if unintended, why do I react so quickly, judging the motive to be a negative one? In this area I have been aware lately, and I have been striving to smile more, to acknowledge how I am in charge of my emotions, not the other way around. I've been reflecting on the fact that sometimes I have no reason to be angry; Some things are just the way they are. Can someone help it if they are asking the same question I have heard from several other people before?

I really need to focus on my feelings before just reacting to the situation at hand. I'm going to strive to be a happier person and not let my emotions rule me. I have a good example in my life of someone who is quick to misjudge the motivation of others and he has been a motivation in my desire to change. I am grateful for the chance to be aware of my faults, and I am very grateful that I have been given the yearning to change.

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